Where have I been..

For Those of you who do not know.. I own another blog dedicated to saving money...here is what I just wrote to them........

 

 

"First off I want to apologize for leaving you all hanging! I can honestly say I thought about my fans ALL THE TIME. I am glad I am finally getting the time to sit down and explain myself! However I am very sorry. I have had ALOT on my plate...and still do.

First thing, we are currently trying to sell our first home and relocate. This is a JOB all in itself. For anyone who has sold a home, esp. by owner knows! You have to keep the house spotless and perfect for showing, which with two babies in next to impossible. Then dealing with " potential " buyers day in and day out is rough as well... Here is just ONE example of what someone put me through... I had someone tell me they were interested in my home...on the day I was suppose to show it she text me and says she can not make it she is sick...ok thats fine no biggie...I text her later in the week and she says I ended up in the hospital and my aunt passed away...I said ok thats fine....then she text me and said her friend died...ok...so finnnallyy we set a date...keep in mind this went on for about a month...she was suppose to be here at 1:30 that day...at 1:50 she text me and says I am 15 minutes away..sorry running late...I say no biggie...at 3:00 she is still not there!! I text twice and call...no answer...finally at 3:30 I block my number....she answers....I say hi this is the woman with the house are you coming? SHE HANGS UP ON ME!!!!!! My husband had worked night shift so he had stayed up waiting on her and got NO SLEEP...my babies did not get naps waiting on her...not to mention I busted my butt making the house look PERFECT! Then she pulled that...needless to say by that point I was in tears....that is just one example..

Anyways moving on.. My baby boy also turned ONE. Tear. For anyone who does not know I LOVE to party plan. So I spent alot of time planning his special day. I just can not believe my sweet boy is one already. I can remember the day he was born PERFECT.

and now he has grown into this beautiful boy....

Also my husband lost his 92 year old grandmother. What a long wonderful life. So we spent a few days with loved ones and such.

We also sold our truck and Momma finally got her a big ol' SUV. Oh let me tell you I LOVE the room and 3rd row seating.. Oh and it was CHEAPER...always a plus!! Here is what I got...

We have also been dealing with looking at new homes....alot of new homes...My husband also got a new job ( same company just a new location and schedule. ) Trying to adjust to that is hard... He use to be gone ALOT on trips.. Now he is home every night at 5 or every morning at 5 (depending on the week) and off every other week. I love my husband DEARLY but going from him not being here alot to him being here ALL THE TIME is hard to adjust haha. But I must say I like it.

And finally my blogs.. my weight loss journey has taken a bit of a back seat with all this going on.. :( I have lost around 15 lbs. though! I just need to jump back on board and get back on track and start focusing on me a little more..it will come in time..and that blog will start back up as well.. As for this blog I HAVE BEEN working behind the scences. =] Pretty excited!! Considering a name change..we will see..

But I think that about sums it up... I have been pretty busy...I am sorry for leaving you hanging..and I hope this helps explain why I have been MIA.. Most of all I hope you all still love me and will stick behind me as I start to wrap things up with the house and such. I will be back NO WORRIES! I love what I do and I love you all! =] "

So I know NONE of this is an excuse to fall off the wagon and I know I need to follow my own advice! I have just really fallen in a funk and lost motivation.. I do not know what is wrong with me! I have come so far... I CAN NOT give up now it is not an option!! Update weight wise: I went from 216 lbs. to 195 lbs.  I have gained a few back these past weeks. Which is why I really need to jump back on board. It is not over. I am not leaving this journey.. I just need to dig for that motivation again and get out of my funk and take my own advice!!! We will see what these next couple week bring. A new start? I hope! =] I hope you all are doing far better then my sorry butt..I am so sorry.

To be continued.....

 

Day 20 - Day 26.....

Sorry I have been MIA! I have not forgotten about you all. My husband was off for a week.. I knew from the get go it would be a challenge! Well first off I had weigh-ins on Saturday... I lost 4lbs. for the week! I was happy with that! I had this BIG plan that on the week my husband was off I would workout more because he could watch the kids...that did not happen....at all... I did not work out once..and I paid for it. I have not lost one pound this week. Plus I feel off the wagon 2 days. I am VERY disappointed in myself, but the week is not over and he goes back to work today soooo... back at it! I think you have to remember this is a lifestyle change. If you are not happy with your diet plan and workout plan it is not something you will stick to for a lifetime. It is ok to have days when you eat cake or fast food, but I think the trick is being able to jump right back on track and keep going! Not just say, "oh well I messed up, I can't do this, I am done...." So I started fresh this morning and plan on getting a good workout in tonight! =] NEVER GIVE UP! I think this is the point in the year where alot of people quit. I am starting to see it. I think if you want to quit you will find any excuse to quit.  Well NO EXCUSES this year. We have 11 more months this year to make a change DO NOT give up on me now! =] I can not make you do this though..you have to WANT THIS FOR YOURSELF! I know I want this so bad. I look at my body and I am literally disgusted...Where did that gymnastics/cheerleading body go? I am only 22.... my thighs should not touch, my tummy shouldn't look like a bowl of jello...I should only have one chin on my face..and I sure as hell should not have stretch marks on my legs and arms.. COME ON! Time for a change.. I want to be hot and HAPPY again! It is a new day.

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Day 19

What a great day!!!! I ate good yesterday and cleaned house all day (broke a sweat), so I was ready to see results!! I  weighed in this morning and I lost....... 2.4 lbs!!!!! I am offically out of the 200s!!!! I went from 213.4 down to 199.3 lbs. That is a 14 lb. weight loss for me! Such a big accomplishment for me!! I was soo excited. I am really excited about weigh ins Saturday. I hope everyone else is still pulling for their goals and working hard!!

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Day 18

No big weight loss today, just .2 lbs..... I deserved that.. Did not work out at all. At least I can own up. :) Tommorow is another day.

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Day 17

Well I lost another 1.3 lbs. on this day. I feel like I am really rocking it this week. I do however need to step it up a bit in the exercise department! I want my old tummy back. :)

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Day 16...

Well yesterday I consumed over 1000 calories ( 1000 should be the range I am in according to my doctor ) and all I did was clean the house for exercise... I was SURE I gained like 2 lbs.. but I got on the scale anyways... I LOST 1.5 pounds!!!!!!!!! Excuse me while I do my happy dance! I have noticed on the days when I eat less than 1000 calories for whatever reason and I do hard workouts, I do not lose or I gain.  However, on the days when I stay right around 1000 and do low impact workouts for a long period, such as cleaning or walking, I lose!! I am starting to figure out what my body wants...Ready for a BIG loss this week! BRING IT ON!

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Day 14....

Gained another pound....Only lost 2 lbs. for the week...enough said. ugh

To be continued......